Pamela Anderson, best known for her role in Baywatch, has opened up in her new memoir, “Love, Pamela” recalling how she was sexually abused as a child.
She wrote much of the book in her grandparents’ former farmhouse on Vancouver Island, where she grew up. In the memoir, Anderson recounts her experiences of being sexually abused by a female babysitter and later raped by a man when she was 12 or 13 years old.
Sexually abused by Nanny
Anderson says, “In my case it was a female babysitter who sexualized me very early, forcing me to play weird games on her body. She threatened me not to tell anyone. Or else.” She also recounts how she didn’t tell anyone about the rape, and it further damaged her self-esteem and self-worth.
“I never thought I was pretty,” she says. “I always thought I was athletic and funny. It kind of catered to my insecurities and probably because of my early sexualization and my shame about it all, I didn’t want to feel that way. I didn’t like that I had any kind of qualities that were attracting the wrong kind of attention.”
Speaking about the book, Anderson says, “I do feel like I’ve definitely figured out who I’m not over a lifetime and now I’m remembering who I am. And who that little girl was before anything happened to her.” She recalls being a young girl who loved nature and climbing trees, but after the abuse, she began to lose trust in adults.
Despite the trauma she experienced, Anderson writes in her memoir, “I could not have survived my adult life without the strength I learned early on.” She moved out on her own at 17, and her appearance in a Canadian beer commercial led to her being discovered by Playboy. “I think about divine timing,” Anderson says.
“I needed to take my power back as a sexual being, as a woman. I remember looking at the pictures, thinking I still didn’t like them but they’re okay. And then I thought, ‘Well, I really flipped the script.”